when we say NO

When we were kids, it’s so easy for us to say, “I want this, I want that”. We are like sponges that could take in anything, only cuter. Haha. As we get older, we find out little by little what really ticks, clicks, and sticks for and to us. We get ourselves and discover the things we like, and we don’t like. Oh well someone once said, if you don’t know what you want, at least you know what you don’t want. That’s a start.

As for me, I know what I want for myself now that I have graduated and now working with my own shield and not the shield generated by my alma mater when I’m still a student. What I would really want is to have a fulfilled career that allows me to inspire people through my writings and travels (Haha too specific?). That’s what I wrote in the autobiography I made for the completion of the application form my friend M and I were asked to accomplish a while ago for a job interview. But there’s another thing that I wasn’t able to include in the two things I mentioned, and that’s music.

WRITING, TRAVEL, MUSIC. 

But oh, I digress.

Today I learned the value of saying NO. A lot of people have told me, a lot of articles have spoken to me, talking about this. When we are confronted with making a choice/decision, we take into consideration a lot of things. As for me, what I’ve always believed is that WE CAN ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING, IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO THE QUESTION IF WE HAVE THE WILL TO DO IT (I’M GONNA POST THIS FOR MY 1000TH PLURK! WOOHOO!). And that has sub-factors (o diba! Parang sub-questions lang sa Thesis! Haha), like if you can meet the urgency, meet the requirements, meet the tasks which would be assigned, etc. Albeit it would make you secured in many aspects, if you are not really prepared and wholeheartedly willing to accept it, then it would be more difficult. At that moment I realized that it’s better if you say no now than say yes now and, in Filipino, maapektuhan pa yung ibang tao dahil hindi mo mabigay yung best mo.

I appreciate and thank the opportunity.

I appreciate and thank the trust.

I appreciate and thank the understanding.

When Mume and Pupi got home, they were so excited to hear my story. I’m just so thankful that they understand. Can’t help but write what Pupi told me, “Okey yung ginawa mo anak. Take your time. Di ka minamadali ng mga magulang mo.” Awwww. It’s really a different feeling when your parents reassure you. ;D

But that doesn’t mean I would be lax and all. I just want a break. Not just a little kitkat break. But a really huge kitkat break. I would need to give this to myself so I could be able to give to others.

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After the interview, M and I went to Eastwood:

Had lunch at Tokyo-Tokyo. Patawa lang eh, yung playlist nila eto yung mga tinugtog habang nagkukuwento ako kay M:

* “Back at One” - Brian McKnight

* “Without You” - Charlie Wilson

* Before I Let You Go” - Freestyle (at dalawang magkasunod na beses pa pinatugtog!)

Oh well, it’s Fate’s Playlist. Haha.