what do you believe in?

In the Catholic Church, today’s Good Friday, the day when we remember Christ’s sacrifice for mankind. When I was little, and people my age (and generation? ) were also little, we used to be reminded not to play during Holy Week, especially when it’s Good Friday and Black Saturday because we should be respectful of the commemoration of Christ’s death. If we laugh boisterously we were reprimanded. It makes me wonder now if it is still the same. And it makes me wonder about the bigger picture, about how people spend their time during Holy Week aside from complaining about how hot it is (I’m guilty of that, haha).

When I got older we tend to spend the Holy Week watching films (movie marathon is the ultimate bonding time!) and when we want the DVD player to rest a bit we watch something interesting on TV. Like a while ago we watched this documentary hosted by Bernadette Sembrano about the “Peregrinos”. A group of people who are confronted with different challenges in their lives join the priests in a pilgrimage from Portugal to Spain to France. The churches are just fascinating. But of course their stories are, too. About how they were moved by the miraculous presence in the places they’ve been to. I was moved when the subjects were talking about believing that “Nothing is Impossible”. I have my own share of being a living proof of that statement. That when you really wish for something to happen, and you hold it deeply in your heart, with all sincerity and faith, it will happen. Prayer is the first step. And what you would do with the opportunity you created is the next. It’s PRAYER + ACTION, baby.

Oh well I digress yet again from what I would really like to point out in this post. Why am I always like this? I love to digress for long then snap back to reality that I haven’t gotten to the track I’d like to lead to. Haha.

I’m still absorbed about the thought of my past, present, and future, and how I’d be able to actually befriend each other instead of them hating each other (haha ang labo). Which made me think of this: the past is not really past when it still carries on in your present. And when the so-called past persists in the present, it may affect what you decide to do in the future. Oh well just another random blurting. Haha. )

I think almost, if not all, of my batchmates (not just in the same school) are also still in career limbo. “What’s Next?”, “Where Do I Go From Here?”, “When Can I Start?”, “What Do I Really Want?” can be popular titles. What really concerns me is not whether I’d get a job or not ASAP, but what field, what direction I would really like to take. I’ve tried to think it through movies; I’ve tried to think it through books; I’ve tried to think it through photographs; I’ve tried to think it through TV shows… but I know what’s most important is to think it through my heart. As they say, nothing can substitute what really makes our hearts happy. Sabi na eh, magpapaka-rockstar na talaga ako! Hahahahaha!!!

HOW WILL I BEGIN? So help me God. I don’t want to take this too seriously, nor do I want to take this lightly. After all, this is my life. And I know just like any other life, I want to make it extraordinary.