Life in Orange-Tinted Glasses

i told myself i should avoid sleeping after 12MN but here i am

May 19, 2009
I just finished typing another “serious” post about fangirling (the adjective makes me go LOL). An idea cooked up in my head last week about coming up with “Chronicles of a Fangirl”, a chronological account of how my Archuweek had gone for my friends and other concerned citizens (haha) to see. But then I decided to change it to “Fangirl Diaries” instead. That way I can play with my narration. I don’t want to get stuck with chronology and stiff and strict beginning, middle and end. Oh well I wonder if I have really achieved that! Haha.
 
Last week was just WOW. It was the peak of my fangirling craze. I just kept on doing what I did, enjoyed, figured out how far I can go and how much I can give and what can be given to me. Which reminded me of Takemoto in Honey & Clover. He kept pedaling without looking back. He reached the end of Japan and began pedaling back immediately. He humbly declared he came back with literally nothing and that he did not find any answers.
 
Just youth in its’ purest, his masters exclaimed.
 
Just my youth in its’ purest, I exclaim. Fangirling makes us young. :)
 
Now I should get some sleep because it’s 12:47 on Phoenix’s clock. When I wake up and get my fingers back in my laptop I’ll be posting the first part of my “Fangirl Diaries”. Sweet night! :D
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the archucook week

May 11, 2009

It’s a lazy Monday for me. I woke up real early (well, in my clock it is), 8AM and found myself lurking around netdome again. I’ve been online for 5 hours I think. Haha. The only fruitful thing I think I was able to do was to post some original new content on my Tumblr and inform the people from Archuleta Philippines that ‘ll be coming to the concert. Nyahaha. 

Speaking of the concert, it’s coming in five days! Archie has just twitted a few hours ago about his flight to the Philippines tomorrow. Some Archie fans are going to head to the airport to welcome him with the widest of arms and smiles. If our house is just near the airport, I would’ve! Haha. I haven’t been a hardcore fangirl since Mandy Moore and M2M! :) ) You know, the kind of fangirl that collects everything (pictures, videos, articles, etc.) of their idol, works her way to meet them if they come to the country, befriends fellow fans, lurks in their official message boards, writes songs for or inspired by them, and dreams she can be like them one day! Haha.

  

I became an Archuleta fan because of his album. Oh man, before I was totally into David Cook. But when my friend Panky highly recommended to me Archie’s album, I gave it a spin. And then the single spin became multiple spins until everyday I was listening to it every morning. I think it has a fresh pop vibe into it, and what makes it distinctive and appealing is the fact that the boy sings it with so much soul. I often wonder where he got them. As for Cookie, it’s not that I don’t like him anymore. It’s just that I’m not that into him as much. His hotness will always be felt. Haha.  But his album is a bit heavy. It’s not that I’m comparing them, I think it all boils down to musical preference and whoever is more appealing to you. Both of them are good and that is unquestionable.

Archie’s plus factor for me is his personality. I’ve seen a majority of his vLogs and his bLogs (haha letter play) and his smile can really light up anyone’s heart (see above photo). His youth and the success he has achieved and still achieving so far is so inspiring it’s so tempting to try your luck at being a rockstar.

Any fan would of course love to meet their favorite, and I’m no exception. He’ll be here tomorrow, I wonder what’s in store for the fan in me? :D

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dumbelina

May 8, 2009
Sa loob ng isang oras o higit pa, dapat kasama ako ni Mume at ng mga officemates niya na nakasakay na sa bus biyahe papuntang beach, kung san hindi pa natatapos ang school year kating-kati na kong pumunta. Siguro sa loob ng tatlong oras malamang nandun na kami.
 
Pero I can only predict, kasi hindi na ko makakasama. May kailangan kasi akong gawin para dun sa final screening sa show na tinawagan ako kahapon para sa isang interview (na ikinagulat ko talaga ng bonggang-bongga kasi akala ko hindi na nila ako tatawagan). Ngayong araw din kasi ang deadline. Hindi ko rin nagawa kagabi gaya sana ng gusto kong mangyari dahil inantok na ko, gabi na rin kami nakauwi dahil sobrang traffic, pinaluguan pa kami ng ulan.
 
Puwede naman sanang magdala na lang ako ng laptop at gumawa doon, may roaming naman daw ata yung mga kasamahan ni Mume. Meron ding puwedeng magpahiram ng prepaid broadband. Eh kaso naman anong magiging essence nung trip, diba? Hindi ko rin maeenjoy gaya ng gusto ko kasi may iba akong preoccupation. Dapat kung babiyahe ka, iiwanan mo lahat ng trabaho at nandun ka lang para mag-chillax, mag-senti, makipagkulitan, makipagtawanan, kumanta na parang walang ngalangala, mangolekta ng shells, magpabaon sa ilalim ng kabuhanginan, at kung anu-ano pa! :D
 
Kung tutuusin din, puwede naman hindi ko isubmit on time. Mag-aapologize ako. Kahit na maging factor yung pagsubmit ng late sa magiging verdict (kainis yung term! haha!).
 
Pero sa totoo lang, puwede rin namang hindi na ko magpasa. Kasi narealize ko kahapon na hindi ganun yung trabahong gusto ko. Hindi dahil mahirap siya, dahil kung tutuusin kakayanin ko naman yun kahit gano kahirap, basta gusto ko yung ginagawa ko. Eh ito na nga eh, pinararamdam na sakin ng damdamin ko (nyak ang cheesy! haha!) na ayoko talaga, wala kasi akong maramdamang passion towards it. Eh naniniwala ako na para talaga makapagperform ka nang mahusay lalo na sa mga media-related jobs kailangan talagang passionate ka at determinado dahil kung hindi lagi ka lang mafufrustrate at hindi ka rin tatagal sa trabaho mo.
 
Pero gagawin ko pa rin. Kasi nakucurious din ako sa kung anong puwede kong mahanap, kung anong puwede kong matutunan. Gagawin ko ‘to for additional knowledge na rin. Basta ako sa sarili ko paninindigan ko kung saan ko muna gustong magtrabaho sa ngayon. Oo nga’t walang masama kung susubukan mo ang lahat, pero it will always boil down sa tanong na ‘to: gusto mo bang subukan? Kasi yun yung magpapaandar sa’yo.
 
Choosy ba? Sabi nila sa panahon ngayong mahirap maghanap ng trabaho dahil sa maraming rason, tanggapin mo na lang kung ano yung ibibigay sa’yo. Mag-ipon ka, wag tumigil sa paghahanap, hanggang sa mapunta ka sa kung san mo talaga gusto. Pero hindi yun ang prinsipyo ko eh. Gusto ko na gusto ko yung ginagawa ko. Kasi naniniwala ako na mas magiging beneficial yun sa’kin, sa mga katrabaho ko, sa mga mahal ko sa buhay, at sa pinagseserbisyuhan nung pinagtatrabahuhan ko kung yung mga empleyado nila passionate sa ginagawa nila.
 
Kung meron man akong natutunan sa challenge na kinakaharap ko ngayon, yun eh yung malaman ko sa sarili ko kung ano yung hindi ko gustong pasukan (for now, hehe malay naman natin in the future diba?), minsan din mapapaisip ka sa sinasabi nang ibang tao, pero at the end of the day, kaninong kaligayahan ba yung siniseek mo diba? Hindi naman sa kanila eh, kundi sa’yo. Mas madaling ipaglaban yung pinaniniwalaan mo kesa sa hindi.
 
Sabi ni Mume may iba pa namang opportunity para mag-beach, at siguradong may plano si God. (Lordskie, si David Archuleta! Hahahaha!)  Sobrang thankful talaga ako sa mga magulang ko, kasi naiiintidihan nila ako.
 
Post-Note: Waha ang emo ng entry na ‘to, hehe, ganun talaga, kahit yung mga masayahing tao napapa-emo rin. Tapos magiging happy na ulit, kasi nilabas mo na yung ka-emohan mo. Oh diba? :) )
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can you sleep?

May 4, 2009

It’s nearly one in the morning, and here are my fingers, stranded on the keyboards. In a way I’m glad that I’m not alone in this “can’t-sleep-at-night” kind of situation these days. Haha. My Twinnie, Jensen, told me that this is because we’re not yet tired (coz we’re bums! haha!) and we were so used of the school person’s lifestyle. Since I don’t want to get stuck in bed counting sheeps and all the animal population, I’ll just type away my thoughts, and just what I’ve said in my Plurk, I’ll blog myself to sleep. Hahaha! (Besides! I’ve read somewhere that if you can’t sleep, don’t stay in bed. Do something else. Let it be your lullaby, whatever that is! Haha!)

Just some random thoughts:

* I feel like I need to be more outspoken. I’m really the listener type athough I can be talkative around friends. There’s this thought that crossed my mind, that listeners could actually talk about a lot of things because they listen to a lot of stories. There’s an inner urge inside of me to be more “out-there”. :D

* Sometimes the anxiety butterflies still flutter in my stomach re: my chosen career path (for now), but just like what my friend Des advised me, “try everything. life is short”. So yes I will try. If I know and believe now that it is what’s good for me then it will be. And I guess it’s okay to be scared sometimes, rather than being too confident. The feeling is more rewarding when you are able to jump off from your fears (wee, that’s inspired by Taylor Swift’s concept of “Fearless”. Woohoo!.

* I think I’ve enjoyed much of my own company that I feel this time, I’m more excited and ready to be with other people. And by that I don’t mean having a boyfriend or something. As if! Haha. Now I just feel that I relish more the moments of hanging out with my family and friends or simply talking to them. Yii. :D

* I’ve been re-feeling my dreams for quite some time now. I know what they are, but I’m trying to rekindle my passion for them. I’ve been a calm ocean for far too long. I want to create big waves.

* Sometimes we tend to overthink, when we should have just stopped and tried to take the step and get moving. (Me, guilty. Haha.)

* I love our Plurk session tonight. On one, I said, 

“happy thoughts ang tatalbog sa Myra E at ang Fountain of Youth!” (I told this to my friends Marilyn & Maxine, on the former’s Plurk. I reposted it coz I thought it was fun, cute! Haha!) :D

then I went on with Maxine’s idea of naming a drug “Happy thoughts”, when I thought of,

Magbebenta ako ng mga nakalagay sa capsule bottles, tapos sealed in an orange box, tapos, pagbukas nila, walang gamot! may nakalagay lang na kasulatan sa bottom nung bottom, “happy thoughts. it’s in you.” wawawaw!

There’s something I’ve done not very recently, but still very fresh, that I’d like to keep in mind and heart always. If I was able to express myself in that situation, a very risky one perhaps, then I could pull off another one and more in the future if I want to, in other areas of my life, because I can. I can jump off of my fears, because I can. I don’t want to forget this because I don’t want to put in vain how you are inspiring me. You set me free. :D

Now, I can sleep. Hopefully! :D

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