7 things

No, it’s not “your eyes, your smiles, your old Levi’s”, and “when we kissed I’m hypnotized”.  LOL.These are the 7 things evolving inside my head like celestial bodies. And don’t worry (oh well if you are), Miley Cyrus is not one of them. Haha.

1. For the past few blog entries I seemed to skip, unintentionally though, writing about the matters of the heart. But I realized that it would be more “valuable” if I spew it out into the virtual world. I know I can just be anybody out here who rides the “needless self-promotion” bandwagon, but it would be nice to put that ride to good use. Here I go:

When we’re at the peak of our feelings, we always think that forever is forever, and that healing seems far-fetched. I myself went through that phase and that phase is not all sugar. But for this matter, time is my friend, because time gently and gradually hushed the angry waves  of my heart. “Now” is all that we really have, because tomorrow it will never be the same. We won’t always feel the way we do. Realizing this has both become boon and bane for me. Boon because, of course, there is nowhere else to go but forward. Nothing else to do if you did what you got to. Just as what I have tweeted:

And it’s hard to go on when you don’t want to, right?  The most difficult enemy is the self, and the free will that resists. On the other hand, my “artistic” side finds it bane because there are songs which I have yet to write, songs which I feel indebted to write and which I believe will help me free everything. But it’s difficult when you’re not in the same state as when the idea stroke. Creatively you’re there, but emotionally you’re detached. I’m still trying to reconcile both areas. I have to! Sayang naman kasi yung ideas. Hehe.

2. I’ve had some “chance encounters” [insert *evil grin* here] in the past few weeks, and they’ve been renting quite a space in my mind for some time now. Cheesy as it sounds, it makes me wonder what if I got to know more of these people, more than a brief exchange of looks and smiles, or a few hours of non-stop conversation, and not merely be passers-by? Maybe that curiousity, that mystery, is what keeps me into thoughts of it. 

3. On one of our breakfast talks, my Pupi told me (well this is the paraphrased version LOL): “You don’t have to make us proud. Ang importante yung mag-enjoy ka at maging happy ka”. I held a lump in my throat for a long while. These simple words are what I will hold on to.

4.  “Playful banter about pranks or petty crimes committed in school or at work,including youthful escapades, may accidentally be read by the staff of the company you have applied for a job. It is prudent to bear in mind that once a message or photo is uploaded in the Internet, that material can be read, not only by its intended receiver, but by anyone who has access to a computer.”

-  Raul J. Palabrica, “Social Networking Risks”

My eyes grew wide while reading this article. It reminded me of a playful/naughty remark I told my friends on one of our virtual hangout places not long ago, but in no ill intention whatsoever to whom I “attributed” it.  Wahwahwah. Oh please don’t sue me. I have come in peace. *beautiful eyes*

5.  I really really really wish (to the nth power) to the heavens above that in the very near future I’d be able to attend a Songwriting workshop somewhere. I’m more than willing to work my butt off to earn money for it. Oh please, Bro.

6.  These little moments, simple moments I get to spend time with Mu and Pu are just so precious to me. I cherish everything, all the laughter, the jokes, the pranks, the intellectual debates, the heart-to-heart talks, that day when we watched Up. I cherish that day, Pupi’s birthday, when he sang me a song called “Just You” (”with a big brown eyes she came my wayyyyyy…”) and just a while ago when our karaoke-ing (here goes my penchant for inventing words) neighbors sang Michael Buble’s “Sway”, we danced even though we both have left feet. Haha. These sweet moments really mean a lot to me.

7.  A new beginning is coming. I can sniff its aroma like fresh grass and fully-grown flowers in the field. So help me Bro.